Insecurities – part one

Cosmetic problems, that’s what I have all the time. For me its always peripheral image that counts a lot and that has been my undoing. Taking a walk here in the evenings along the coast with cold wind on your face and nothing but an mp3 player for company you think all these idiotic perceptions is all but screwed up thinking.

Your ways of life at all cross-roads is just false. You are just there, you really haven’t gone anywhere, it’s just that the perceptions of a cumulated time make the atmosphere either all gloomy or all rosy. For me, it’s gloomy all the time.

Maturity is not all about experience or being infinitely intelligent or knowledgeable. I believe it’s the ability to be discerning about the choices that are before you. And always there are multiple choices. I love to speak back, do the foolish and be a loner. Some play safe and get everything they want but both are right ain’t we.

I justify a lot, a friend told me several times. I justify for the world but I am sure that I doing the wrong and insane but I still do it.

I have made a zillion mistakes, bluffed all the time and cheated all the time but is it all ok when you look at the big picture that I have still retained my sanity.

The people I grew up are all very successful now, now a days they speak a language that I don’t understand and I know I am not a part of the common strand of understanding that is present among all of them. So do I still love the way I am alive…

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7 thoughts on “Insecurities – part one”

  1. It’s a little concerning when the title reads “Insecurities _ Part one”.. are there more of these to come :p I hope not.

    See.. there are two ways we can cure you out of this gloom, one.. you could visit a therapist.. but unfortunately, all the therapists I ve seen are either extremely short skirted or have a great perfume, so you would invariably fall in love. Hence, I advise against it. Two, you could buy yourself a playstation and learn how to play Grand Theft Auto. This way you would be too busy in fronta the telly to think of anything outside the screen.

    But I am highly skeptical you would heed to either suggestion, 🙂

    So lemme just offer some unsolicited words.. stop being a perimetric/peripheral fool, and start learning something from the zillion movies you watch. Behind those great camera angles and the oh-so-critical acting, there actually lies a story. Every story has a has something to say, the question is – are you listening?

  2. that’s something that i have never been able to answer – if i see so much, hear so much and learn so much, why do i feel like shit???

  3. Adarsh, LOL!

    Ravi,

    You see. You just be yourself. There are problems I’m sure but who doesnt face them?

    Just go grab a beer. Beer heals all. It’s medicinal properties are well known to us 😀

  4. Adarsh,Atlantean LOL!
    hey ravi… this is the 1st comment frm me on ur posts… i hv read all ur posts but did not know how to comment on any of them n as is the case with this post too 😀 … but i will try for once .everyone is insecure ,so am i …n so r u , n i liked the suggestion frm Atlantean abt the medicinal properties of beer …so cheers ravi 😉

  5. Hey, If you’re sick of beer, try parrot bay. Comes in a variety of flavours. Pinapple and orange was good for me yesterday, along with smirnoff Ice – triple black! smells like coconuts in temples :))

    Anyways, beat yourself up. It keeps my spirits high 😛

    -Inconsiderate friend

  6. Hey, If you’re sick of beer, try parrot bay. Comes in a variety of flavours. Pinapple and orange was good for me yesterday, along with smirnoff Ice – triple black! smells like coconuts in temples :))

    Anyways, beat yourself up. It keeps my spirits high 😛

    -Inconsiderate friend

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